So this Claudio guy is asking me if I stay bought. And I tell him
yes, because telling him anything else is even stupider. But what's the
real answer? How exactly does a Kaim'era for sale act, anyway?
The part of me that joined the army was going, "Hell yeah, I stay
bought!" And the part of me that just doesn't care anymore wanted to say,
"As far as *you* know." The Kaim'era was debating the merits of killing
this dark-skinned fool. It was hard to hear with all the noise in my
head.
So what exactly am I about, these days? Was I really going to
heal Abigail before I killed her, per my contract? I think I was. One
thing should not get confused with another. We had a bargain, after all.
So what does a bargain mean? Why do I think I should keep my
bargains with people I intend to kill anyway? And why was I so pissed
when she crossed me, when I blackmailed her in the first place?
I'll go with stability. The one thing I know for a fact is that
everything is subject to change. You can't get too attached to things as
a mercenary, anyway. And Lord knows, I don't place a whole lot of store
in morals. But the brain is wired to try to predict things. You can't
live in a complete vacuum. So I try to make bargains, stick to my half,
and expect the other party to stick to theirs. That gives me a framework
to operate in.
It's not the best one. It's not even real good. But it's based
on a fairly low set of expectations, and I kind of like that. So what
frameworks are my new associates using?
Claudio wanted me to dump pig shit in Melanie's office. Not
rational. I conclude that Claudio views the world through his passions.
That makes him both dangerous and weak. Dangerous, because passion is
strong and unpredictable. Weak, because passion is not directed toward a
greater goal. It is its own reason for being.
Ulysses...what a freak. He hasn't been too obvious, but he seemed
to be motivated by his conviction that he knew more about the scene than
Archimedes did. I wonder if that was a special case, or if he's a fool,
or if he really does tune in to a better channel? In the latter case, I
should watch him. In the former case, I should watch him. In the middle
case, everyone should watch him.
This Killian fellow is a wreck right now. I expect that he will
either flip, or adjust. The adjustment might go my way. I shall wait.
Archimedes...the Crown Prince of Amber seems to be almost without
fear. Except of his wife. It follows that I need to make the
acquaintance of his wife.
I do not think Flora will go to bed with me.
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