I rose in the morning to pray one day In the bloom of the dawn I rejoiced, And my heart skipped lightly before my God
As His praises in song I voiced. It was marvelous being caught up in arms Which led my dancing soul,
While I thought I would burst for the joy I felt To sing, to play at my Father's throne
And then there was the day that I rose to pray And I wrestled my wandering mind.
It is sin or self or satan, dear Lord, that works this frustration? A kind of labyrinth of thought -
I pressed -
And that birthed the morning I didn't arise My body dictated the word which my mind confirmed while my spirit squirmed;
For Your beckoning voice it heard:
"Come, Child; Come be with Me." "Come, now watch and pray." "Can you not watch one hour with me?"
But my body said, "Rest!" and my mind said, "Remember, You'll not get far when you're like this
Now I'm here again, Lord, it's another day And as sure as I am that you hear And as glad as I am to be with You ...
I'll say that my heart is somehow tempted to fear.... I fear I'm a failure at prayer And I fear that my stumbling words will not count
I fear I'll never be consistent in prayer Like the ones who on eagle's wings mount
Then a Voice speaks to me:
"Child of dust, I know you and it's you I've invited to be with Me each day at the time that you pray .... whether dancing or weary. You see, I have never required certain moods of you And so, never require them of Me. But I'll meet you there, however you are. We will dance at times, when your spirit climbs Or 'mid wandering thought, I'll forsake you not. And when words are bare, I'll still hear your prayer
But keep coming, My Child
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